[[alternative]]The Journey of Care-giving for the Ill: A Phenomenological Analysis of A Mother's Narrative

[[abstract]]本論文旨在探討生病陪伴歷程的內在體驗，採取超驗現象學的進路，呈現陪伴者主體經驗的結構與本質。依循Moustakas的現象學方法，通過一位兒癌母親的自述，對其生病陪伴經驗進行描述與剖析。 本研究通過訪談與手札資料的現象還原分析，由「視域與構成經驗之主題」、「現象脈絡描述」、「結構描述」到「經驗本質的意義結構」，漸次深化對經驗現象的了解。其中，刻劃出陪伴者從意外到意義的心靈轉化歷程，並揭露推動整個陪伴經驗中意義結構變遷的動力 － 「愛」，以及此意義結構之本質 － 母子間的共依附關係。 本研究結果可提供疾病或臨終階段論觀點的補充，也可做為臨床專業照顧者回應生病陪伴者主體需求的改進參考。[[abstract]]The thesis aims at exploring the inner experiences of a caregiver who shared the illness journey of her beloved son diagnosed with cancer. Following Moustakas, it adopts the approach of transcendental phenomenology to uncover the structural essence of the caregiver’s subjective caring experience. Based on the mother’s narrative, the illness caring experience is then delineated and analyzed. The main sources of data analyzed herein include depth-interviewing texts and diaries. The phenomenological reduction process deepens as the analysis goes from Horizonalizing, Qualities and Themes, Contextual Analysis, to Structural Descriptions. It reveals a spiritual transformative process in which the unforeseen event of the son’s dying finally became meaningful. And, it is the mother-son love that provides the subject with dynamics going through the varying meaning structures during the course. The research outcomes may supplement those stages theories of illness and dying with some new perspectives; they may also improve professional caregivers’ sensitivity in recognizing the subjective desires and needs of family members