[[alternative]]Self-Narrative Study on Spiritual Experience of a Christian Who Attends Gospel Psychodrama

[[abstract]]本研究由福音心理劇的靈性經驗開展，並書寫在劇裡四種角色（主角、輔角、觀眾、導演）的轉換，以及研究者與上帝相遇的過程。研究者透過經驗的關注、訴說與轉錄，重新建構不同角色中的靈性經驗，並以自我敘說研究方法梳理心理劇、福音劇與福音心理劇等相關靈性脈絡。研究者以聖經中浪子回頭的故事貫串文本，以「浪子回家」的隱喻寫出主角與觀眾的靈性經驗;而後的「家中生活」則是擔任福音心理劇導演的靈性經驗歷程;最後在輔角的見証性角色中，看見自己與劇中主角靈性的成長。於是，當研究者返身迴看內在的靈性歷程時，發現在不同的角色中皆能經驗上帝的同在，在團體歷程中更看見靈性無所不在的連結。透過與理論的對話，則標示出福音心理劇連結靈性與心理治療的貢獻，也呈現身為福音心理劇導演的特別條件。最後，在反思中亦記錄研究者自身在靈性的旅程中，內在的整合與蛻變。關鍵字：自我敘說，基督徒，福音心理劇，靈性經驗[[abstract]]The research started from the spiritual experiences of gospel psychodramas and described the switch of the four roles – the protagonist, the auxiliary ego, audience and the director–in the drama, and the research included the process of the researcher’s encounter with God. The researcher reconstructed the spiritual experiences among different roles by attending, telling and transcribing experiences. Furthermore, with self-narrative method, the researcher summed up the spiritual sequences about psychodrama, gospel drama, gospel psychodrama and so on.The researcher cited the parable of the prodigal son in the Bible to penetrate the script and interpreted the spiritual experiences of protagonists and audience with the metaphor of “the prodigal son’s return.” Subsequently, “the life in church” was the spiritual experiences that the researcher took on the director of gospel psychodramas. At last, with the witnessing role of the auxiliary ego, the researcher realized the spiritual development of her own and the protagonists’.Therefore, when the researcher looked back at the internal spiritual experiences, she found that she could always experience God’s presence in different roles, and in in the group process. She could also see the omnipresent connections of spirituality Through the intersection with theories, the researcher revealed the contribution that gospel psychodramas connected spirituality and psychotherapy and presented the special conditions of being a gospel psychodrama director. In the end, the researcher introspected herself and also recorded internal integration and evolvement in the journey of spiritualityKey Words: Christian, gospel psychodrama, spiritual experience, self –narrativ