Looking

My series Looking is a working collection of images taken in film to visually express the concept of being watched and viewed as a woman in society. Originally working with the concept of youth vs. adulthood I have narrowed more selectively to the concept of being watched and objectified in the public view. As of late, with the ongoing social killer that is Covid-19, I have been looking back on my ideas of self-expression. I love frilly clothes and cute, feminine colors and yet I instead choose to hide in clothes that are too large and too bulky to ever really suit me. I realize that most of my life I have been hiding myself away so that when I am in the public-eye I can minimize the chances of people seeing me. I want to push that feeling as far away as I can by doing exactly what I hate. My series is one of self-portraits, images of myself in outfits and soft settings I could never previously bring myself to share with other people. I now want people to look. I also want to look at my own images as they do. My hatred for people looking at me stems from my inability to look at myself. I want to be able to see myself from a disconnected point of view, one that is not so heavily biased. Looking is a project created to overcome my own personal insecurities and connect with people who have and have not felt this way before