[[alternative]]Sound of Water：A Self-Narrative Study of the Growth of Feminine Psyche

[[abstract]]研究者在最初欲探索心理諮商專業對自身的意義，以「自我敘說」為研究方法開始書寫論文。爾後在研究過程，經歷多次轉折，研究者了解更深層研究目標：發現內在陰性面向心靈的發展。整理的生命故事包括家庭背景故事、在中國生活與就學的經驗、憂鬱症情緒經驗、學習藝術的過程、從事照顧服務員工作的經驗、身心經驗、情感經驗、接受心理諮商以及學習心理諮商專業的經驗，從這些生命故事中，研究者看見內在動力變化，構成心靈發展的方向。 研究者以榮格觀點來理解自身心靈陰性面向發展：從童年到青年早期，偏向陽性的生活方式，讓研究者生活目標窄化，導致身心失衡。當開始與諮商專業互動、從事照顧者工作、經歷身體內在經驗與親密情感經驗，心靈內在各種陰性原型開始成長、轉化，並且與內在陽性面向從競爭轉為合作的狀態，在實際生活、以及論文寫作過程中發揮影響。[[abstract]]Researcher primarily intended to discover the meaning of counseling profession to herself, therefore started to write the thesis with self-narrative method. During the researching process, after encountered several transition, researcher perceived a deeper research purpose: to discover the development of feminine psyche. The life stories sorted of included: family background stories, the life of living and studying in People’s Republic of China, experience of depression, the process of learning art, working as a nursing assistant and intimate relationships, the experiences of being a counseling client and counseling training. From the life stories researcher saw the dynamic transformation of inner self composed the path of psyche development. With the perspective of Jung, researcher perceived the development of feminine psyche of herself: During the stage of childhood to young adulthood, the lifestyle partial towards masculine narrowed researcher’s life goal, and lead to physical and mental imbalanced. Feminine archetypes began to grow and transform when researcher stared interacting with counseling profession, career of caring, experiencing intimate relationships. Besides, to be in the statues of cooperation from competition with the masculine aspect of psyche, exerted influence in life and the process of thesis writing