Muir, Helen, Page 9

■ ■ I I you and , 4^u~^ zAhiA. -ry-yfrw Tf^^- \u3e*&**-* v+~r\u3e™-i ftk.-\u27T VPaJ*4- P^at \u3e W^dv Aiasvat tuX**- X\u3e^t regrets^ This^probatoly sounds^ very fantastic to \u27you andm considering th^s^p\u27resenr state of the world*is al80 /LCcUiiu ^ hopeless, tout just the same I cant help wondering if a^u y(\*a O-^am perhaps Papa did\u27nt have some such idea instead of the c~^jv*XT~,dL-\u3c-4-JL-. orthodox Heaven of the golden streets and the everlast- ^ ~& H \u27\u3c. harp playing. I do know that he once wrote to some ^/f^.7 76- ing one about life being far too short to he wanted to do and outlined his idea time on earth might be spent,( I have Let lers, it is in ; I,page 140.) Could we but in Life and vol. then many amid when grew i, letter to Mrs live a MILLION ill the things .-^^W^ a A do of now he wished just looked it up - Carr, in -, / of years, \u27, how delightful to spend in perfect contentment so thousand years in quiet study in college,so many the grateful din of machines,etc.) This was written he was very young, of course, but I think as he older he must have formed definate ideas of his own of a hereaftefry\9ls I look back and wish I had asked Papa things that now must go unanswered, I realize that if I could have been with him longer\u27than that last good year ( Aug. 1906 - Dec. 1907 )when we were closer than ever before, we no doubt would have had talks that would have been priceless, that would have been an endless comfort for me to remember. The fact that that last year ^-W\u27/^ was precious to him also has been of comfort to me in my ^\o-ry^iu^A/\u3e~ regretful remembering of how little time I was able to J^TvtM *h give him after I left the old home on the hill. In answer°f* ■&* to a, letter of mine in which I made some worrying comment j^ttA about the house, I cant remember what, he replied Never mind the house.someone will buy it or I will myself. Any 5L& how we have had one good year of enjoyment out of it. which is pretty fortunate in this Tale of tears and sonsin law (T.R.H., I was not yet married then)and it will always be more and more beautiful while we own it . You will remember in so amny of his letters Papa spoke of caring gor the place, having the old Chinaman clean __, keep the garden and grounds free of pride in the roses etc. and with this-\u27 thread of longing that I might return appreciate his care of the loved before I had to leave. ~p rooms 1, lAjlJ ■ letters last year before I remembering *iftmost forgotten .-■- the vacant weeds, and of his always a wistfull to enjoy it with him and roses and trees I had so In rereading all of Papa left South Pasadena and in remembering*iftmost forgotten conversations it finally came clear to me on what his hopes were grounded. It was that the babies and Buel and \u27-ccAA-i.)?.,t.cf(\u3e I spend our summers there with him in the old home, Buel AA$f?Arc-/r -fL to care for the ranch, and all of us to get away from . ^in^l the desert heat. I find in his letters over and over some worry about the babies suffering from the heat even /-. if I didnt mind it. But Buel had no experience with a fruit ranch or fruit shipping. He did make several trips to Martinez to attend to some business matter „ A.-A/£, * % fag* A that Papa wanted with his writ in & him to do for him so he- could \u3e or fight for Hetch Hetchy, But ;o on f\u3e he/iwa.nte^ buy to get into something of hl\u27i could\u27nt make Martinez my ye we both thought it best to south somewhere. We chose Hollywood gett ranch when my first boy(now It was a lovely new own, and realizing six months old. round home at that time a home of our own in the and moved from the Wayne,) was about bungalow and I u 09Z& a- ^tt^-) !\u27 , ,A , j U^uA, «A& Axjl. sUJuj ■https://scholarlycommons.pacific.edu/jmr-all/1175/thumbnail.jp