Repressão e sexualidade - tela branca

This project aims to investigate the creative process of painting from something intimate: the repression and sexuality in my childhood and adolescence. We are today in a society that has made great strides in the legal realm and a substantial transformation of mentalities, nevertheless it is still governed by patriarchal and heteronormative views. In our society, identity still needs to be built. The first chapter, entitled "Repression and Homosexual Identity," draws on authors such as Foucault and Butler to understand current thinking about sexuality and identity outside heteronormative patterns, and to analyze the work of some queer artists since the nineteenth century. The second chapter, entitled "The White Canvas: The Creative Act", calls on authors such as Baudelaire, Berger, Deleuze, Hockney, and Kandinsky to explore the relationship that is established with the empty space - the white canvas - by clarifying the movements that precede the physical creative process, the discussion about the validity of painting, the multiplicity and accessibility of existing images, as well as a historical reflection on the artistic language of painting. From this reflection there is the need to develop the artistic project of repression and sexuality to the visual plane, contemplating the reflection on concepts such as the notion of "beauty" of Baudelaire, the need for "emptying" of Deleuze, the validity of painting after the appearance of photography, the multiplicity and accessibility of existing images. After this awareness of the power of the image, the third chapter investigates visual artists that relate to the theme and the use of a personal archive, such as Richter, Tuymans, Dumas, Bacon and Hockney, in order to build a new reality. This through the medium of painting, which simultaneously reveal and omit (the visible and the invisible) images of events and bodily sensations. Thus, the works created seek to explore the affective links with memory, rituals and institutions attended. In parallel, the artistic project integrates the conceptual and aesthetic concerns, raised in the analysis of so many authors, to execute on the "white canvas" personal moments, in a series that I call "Atonement"