[[alternative]]Individuation through lymphoma : the illness and I

碩士[[abstract]]論文的前三章,主體「我」以自我敘說的方法,記錄其罹患「疑似 b 細胞型 淋巴癌」前後約三年的經歷,述及期間內在情緒心理變化,面對死亡之心情,以 及在醫院中與醫師及其他病人彼此互動產生之激盪及自省,並記錄病程中出現的 夢境及想像。 研究者在第四章試圖從「經驗我」所形成的「文本」作詮釋,並匯入寫作當 下因為文本產生而與現實生活應對而生的視角切換與相互交融之影響。「詮釋我」 以病人為中心,從「病中我」的視野往外輻射,以「自性化歷程」、「夢」、「象徵」、 「身體象徵」等為詮釋語言,透過循環反覆扣入、深化,進入主體「我」的潛意 識,試圖達成身體、心理情緒與靈性渴望之相互接納與理解。 在第五章,研究者回到當下之生活事件,將和伴侶間之互動,作為和「Animus 我」完成和解之象徵。同時,研究者發現其「與無意識相融之企圖」之模式,反 覆出現在親密關係、工作場域、及宗教性追求。透過看見這個企圖,學習「自他 分化」,重建主體性,再將之回饋在外顯的諮商輔導工作,幫助主體「我」,更自 在而謙卑的回到助人領域服務。[[abstract]]In Chapter 1-3, using a first-person narrative, author recorded the life experiences of facing cancer in three years. After being suspected to have Lymphoma, the narrator went through a healing process, including experiencing waves of emotions, facing death, learning through the relationship with doctors and other patients, and experiencing dreams and visions. In Chapter 4, author comes out of the narrative point of view, becomes the interpreter. With the light of hermeneutic, the interpreter sees how the I who on the text and the I who experiencing life emerge and co-influnce each other. Under patient-centred and using the language of hermeneutic phenomenology of Self-Individuation, Dream, Symbol, Body symbol, the I who interpreting brought the followings to light: 1)the four stages of healing process could be also the four stages of Individuation. 2)through the narrative process, the I who experiencing life gradually developed acceptance and understanding between body, mind, heart, and spirit. In Chapter 5, author comes to the present life where the reconciliation achieved between I and the Animus. Through all the events, author understands that she repeats a patterns of “ the tendency merging into unconsciousness” in all aspects of her life, including couple relationship, work/therapy, and spirituality. By the process of Self-Individuation, and integrating the projection from outer to inner, the I as a therapist can serve the clients with more easiness and humbleness.[[tableofcontents]]第一章 親愛的,你為什麼生病呢?.......................................…...1 第二章 自我敘說的價值:入四相..........................................…..7 第一節 入四相(我相、人相、眾生相、壽者相)........................7 第二節 從敘說的眼睛看見..........................................……..11 第三節 是誰在說話?...................................................…….14 第三章 「你的願望已完成」:你得了癌症 .................................19 第一節 「你的願望已完成」 ..............................................19 第二節 你得了癌症 ...........................................................21 第三節 生命未盡課題:在死亡來臨前,好好的活著 .........….......27 第四節 死亡陰影:什麼是療癒?誰在接受?誰在給予?......………. 32 第五節 穿梭現實、虛幻與夢境.............................................38 第六節 道別 ............................................................…......45 第七節 以身示相:記醫院中的患者們..............................…....48 第四章 如果這是一個童話...................................................….59 第一節 如果這是一個童話故事,研究者怎麼看?...............……..59 第二節 聽!夢在說話...................................................……..76 第三節 在身體心靈地圖上旅行.............................................89 第四節 生死間的你儂我儂...................................................96 第五節 和 Animus 相會....................................................102 第五章 將投射於外的,涵納收回.......................................…….109 第一節 以敘說作為論文.....................................................109 第二節 女人,渾沌中收納涵養..........................................….115 參考文獻 ........................................................................….119 附錄....................................................................................123 附錄壹:夢境記錄...............................................................123 附錄貳:從印度脈輪理論看身心一體......................................148 附錄参:從中國五行理論看身心一體......................................151[[note]]學號: 696690014, 學年度: 10