Fracture and Re-Generation: A Hermeneutical Phenomenology Study of Man-Boy Relationship

[[abstract]]Interviewing four male adults who are sexually attracted by boys under the age of fourteen, I studied these boylovers' sexual desire, identity and their coping strategies, by adopting hermeneutical phenomenology as a method. I find out that the essence of boys constitute the sexual desire of boylovers, as in other relationships. The characteristics of boys give rise to boylovers' sexual desires. However, in linguistic interactions, these sexual subjects discovered the fracture between language and their senses of self. They cannot express the senses of self with proper language, on some occasions, even in the opposite senses. This leads to tensions and entanglements on self-acceptance and coping with environment. Nevertheless, the dynamics of the sexual desire did not disappear with fractures, rather, on filling the lack, the selves of the boylovers enters the stage of generation, that is, engendering schemas capable of responding to different contexts, which can be variable and multi-tracked. It follows that, the giving-out of language, the self-knowledge of boylovers and the conception of boylovers are interconnected. Therefore, firstly, it is necessary to undertake an investigation of conceptual history of "child." Secondly, people have to reflect upon the concept of "boylover." Listening to them repeatedly, in order to see a new figure of boylovers, from the broken language, generated from fractures, of theirs.